what is it about being with someone? why does it makes you cry and suffer losing them? i just want to get over it. whatever. it was nice. it was love. move on. i'm too young for this feeling, i don't want to feel that way, to feel that much. it scares me. i'm too weak, i'm a kid.
and everyone feels this way one day. it's so ordinary. it's just..i don't waht to suffer. i had it so much in my life, i just don't wanna feel bad, weak, desperate anymore. i dont give a shit what it takes - just fuck you, NO. no suffering.
if you ask me what my type is, i'll tell you "the bitch".
bitch is my type.
anything you have is never forever yours. it's yours for some time. short or long period, but never endless. i will never forget this.
i will get over it soon. it's ok. i just want to be decent in every aspect of this situation. and still - i dont forgive anything just like that. the point is that forgiveness is the reward of suffering. and it's a long road. and she doesn't get that yet. but it's not my concern anymore. i just need some time and i'll be joyfull and strong again. and free! it's nice actually. to have some time for yourself, to develop, to change yourself. i give too much when i am in the relationships. i need someone to take care of me too.
someone else is appearing in my life. i see them in my dreams. i feel weird. i don't remember them, but i feel the strenght which is bigger than mine.
i am happy there are so many great people in this life. so
Keep on fighting to remember
That nothing is lost in the end
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