joy

okay this is lame and emotional posts are useless and boring
but I want to say it
he left today for a week and I already miss him
I feel lame about it because it looks like it's an ego thing - wanting him to be here for me
I want it just because we spend time together, we sleep together and I just want to fucking comfort myself
"oooh I feel so lonely, nobody loves me, I wish he was here right now"
how about you shut up? jesus, this is so eternally lame, I piss myself
I mean, 5 yr relationship love bullshit
then Anthony. I mean, um what was that? me, dying from love and passion
bullshit
now him. getting closer, just having a good time together etc
I still can't get any more of that relationshipy crap

Is missing someone a good thing or not? I don't know.
But feeling lonely being alone is definitely not a good thing. One should be complete.
Also, 50% of bad thinking comes from tiredness. So good night, world. Please, be a better place tomorrow.