never ever in my life i could imagine how different my consciousness is gonna be
whatever i thought of life living in Moscow is so different from what i think now
like the whole paradigm is different and it is still changing so much
i think there are really so many things that are wrong about our society
about "classic" fucking values that are destroying people's happiness
and now i even think that a huge part of it came from the bullshit oppressing religion.
i never though i would say this. I still think that religion was ok but people fucked it up.
for whatever reason, it doesn't matter.
fear and oppression. it's so fucked up. fuck this shit forever.
i don't believe in any of it now. if it doesn't make you feel better about yourself and your life - than fuck it.
fuck thinking "i'ma sinful creature, i am bad and i should suffer for this"
that's SO fucked up, it's crazy!
you're a beautiful creature, and you should do your best and become even better.
and everything you need to know you already know deep inside yourself when you feel warm and bright.
and you deserve to be happy.